Chapter Five – Fight: An update from the road

I am being tested.

Some might get startled hearing that I’m actually glad that my new journey is not like a walk in the park. There’s nothing inherently bad about trials that life puts in your way – the you on the other side of the obstacle will be a triumphant version of the weakling shivering before it. Even the smallest challenge can lead to great growth. We as humans – as products of evolution – tend to shy away from anything that seems even slightly tedious, but in order for you to see your true potential, you must be faced with these tests every once in a while. The capability to push through difficulties is what distinguishes success from the standard.

“If video games have taught me anything, it’s that if you encounter enemies then you’re going the right way.”

– Sacha Baron Cohen (Ali G)

I assume I’m not the only one to be repelled by the word ‘busy’ – there’s a negative association that has become to cast a shadow on the word, due to it often meaning not having time for the meaningful things. Anyhow, it’s the right word to describe my life lately. My first test. My aspirations have led me into trying to juggle with university, life, fitness, the newly found love for writing and the endeavour for a digital nomad lifestyle (Chapter 2 – Hopeful: Of me and my plans). And I thought juggling was relaxing.

“What?! The first exams are already in a month?”

– Me and many other students

The end of this semester is getting close alarmingly fast, and things naturally start piling up. All the reports, assignments and exam preparations. I’ve always felt good starting preparing for exams fairly early, which now puts me in a new position where I have to constantly choose between studies and passions. Should I read a hundred pages about genes, or work on designs?

As excited as I am about my new endeavour, I still want to finish the semester with dignity. The initial plan for writing this blog was to maintain a rhythm of one post per week, but I now realise that it’s not very realistic, all things considered. I hope that after the exams I will have time to get back to that rhythm again, although I don’t want to be too strict with writing schedules.

But oh how do I enjoy writing! Back in high school I grew to hate it, but I now understand that I did so because the topics were usually forced. What if I don’t feel like writing about a book I didn’t want to read in the first place? Just words with nothing to say. Now that I write about things that I care for, I feel like I have learned the language everyone’s been using around me all this time. I’m not the stranger speaking an exotic language anymore.

I’ve never been good at expressing myself verbally (something I’m trying to improve on), because for me it’s crucial to think before letting words come out. And I’m not a fast thinker! I simply need that time to think, and writing allows me to do just that. At last, a way to express myself with words. Of course I’m still novice when it comes to writing, but I’m constantly trying to learn, broadening my vocabulary and the variety in my writing toolbox.

DSC_0485Let’s move on to design. I have been working on the t-shirt designs and getting familiar with Spreadshirt, but I’m not comfortable with launching the shop quite yet. The designs are still missing something, although the plan is to keep at least the first designs very minimalistic. I’m an advocate for simplicity after all. I really enjoy creating, but I also see how much there still is to learn. I’m using Adobe Illustrator to draw the designs, based on hand-drawn sketches, and even though I’m getting comfortable using the programme, there are still many tricks to master. Patience, me. Patience.

Lastly, a quick update on music. In addition to the songs echoing somewhere in the back of my head, I’ve been doing my best to keep playing. Unfortunately I haven’t had the time to be productive, but that time will come! I have some ideas that I wish to concrete soon.


 

That’s first update on my digital nomad journey! Slowly progressing and defeating the dragons one by one. Luckily I’m not in a hurry. I will most likely have more time so spend on these things and to make progress faster. There’s another reason to look forward to the summer.

I’m facing my first ‘enemies’, but fortunately I don’t have to do so alone. Due to this blog being about my personal experiences, I end up talking waaay too much about myself. That’s why I’d like to take a moment talking about YOU for a change. YOU, right there, sitting, standing or perhaps even walking, reading this post on a computer screen or a mobile device. I can’t express how grateful I am for you taking time and reading my texts and giving great support. Although I’ve only posted a couple posts, I’ve already gotten tons of great feedback and so many wonderful comments. I especially thank those of you who have consistently kept delighting me with comments (you know who you are, you fabulous you). Lastly, remember, only in dreams can you get truly unplugged. (*wink*)

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7 comments

  1. trulyunplugged · April 24, 2016

    You are so adorable…so sweet….as for your post, I can so relate to preferring to communicate through written word…most of the time, I’d do better to have additional time to think before speaking, too–and, while I can be articulate when I’m comfortable–I wouldn’t say I am comfortable the majority of the time, lately. The exception is when I am communicating in a work context (with clients). Your post has me thinking about it, and I think that–because I am stretching myself–with the intention of discovering the full extent of my gifts and authenticity–I am less sure of myself. It’s encouraging to read your words related to coming through the other side, better for seeing things through. Thank you for being so brave and open….you are an inspiration….you always smile (even if it’s on the inside) as I read your posts…thank you for sharing the wonder that is you with us….you are AMAZING! 🙂

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    • Call Me a Dreamer · April 26, 2016

      Wow, Truly, this is the kind of comment that really makes me feel like I’m not facing my ‘enemies’ alone. As a matter of fact it goes way beyond that – something that wipes out armies of enemies. Thank you so very much for your words and for sharing your thoughts! It seems that we are very much alike when it comes to this. I believe the temporary feeling of uncertainty is the price for the growth happening while feeling this way, and keeping this in mind makes it so much easier. Keep writing with condifence, Truly! You are unique and it shows in your posts. I always smile as I’m reading them 😉

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      • trulyunplugged · April 26, 2016

        Ooops, I meant “I always smile when I read your posts…” Also, it warms my heart to know that my encouragement is making a difference…it is such an honour to do any little thing to help you continue to keep being amazing and to fight those things that would try to pull you under…that only happens because negative forces know that you are such a force for good….you really are a wonderful light and a blessing 🙂

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      • Call Me a Dreamer · April 30, 2016

        I can’t help but thank you again! You are so lavish in your praise. Also, I understood what you meant, but it sounds very sweet like that too 🙂

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      • trulyunplugged · April 26, 2016

        Thank you for letting me know….it is a privilege to do any little thing I can to encourage you…the forces of negativity try to torment game changers and that is why you experience challenges….you are a light and a blessing and I believe in you …. 🙂

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  2. theveganindian · May 5, 2016

    Keep at it with the designs, you will soon get to the point where your work meets your own high standards! Good luck with the juggling! 🙂

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